Well, since I can't seem to get anyone on their phones these days, I'll break the news this way. Neyver asked me to marry him- on Christmas eve, in front of the family, with no english assistance from me- and I said YES!  ;)

Yes

Yes

Can you believe it?

Sooooo. No day has been picked. Since we could not fit it in Christmas day, we're thinking more about Sept.-Dec 06. Maybe the New Years Weekend? I'll let you all know.... That is if I can reach anyone.

I love you all, miss you like crazy.Work has been quiet demanding, but emotionally i'm doing much better. Yesterday we went to a community center for the homeless of Chattanooga... they have a great model and pretty good favor from the city. I did not get demonstratively excited on the outside, but the visit reminded me of what I want to do. !!!!AHHHHH!!!!

One thing I did say to Neyver last night- Hey, with us getting married, then with children coming, I guess I better start thinking less about going to many more countries. Well, except maybe Mexico. He said: No, we will go to countries.

I like optimism.

----off to work

So I'm many verbatims later... Ah. Paperwork. (smirk) The joys of adulthood.  Anyone want to rebel?

Life is good here in Cleveanooga. I'm thinking about moving.... still. I'm getting a bit better in making decisions. I spend so much time thinking sometimes that I don't DO. Yabba yabba yabba.

Let's see. My neice is doing well. I can't wait to see her again. I bet her hair is getting longer! I miss hearing from my M&M friends ;) Hehhee.. that would be Miranda and Melissa. Being tried after work doesn't really help my relationships. This is another good theory on why I like to live among the people I minister- Communting just bores me until I don't even want to talk afterwards. Doh.

I visited with a family today,,, they were very talkative... so much I struggled to get out of the room,,, even after two pages! I always thought I was good at exits. I will have to exam this now

Te quiero all. <----------:)--------> 

Wow. So- today I was to present a verbatim for a hospital visit. I did not pick a visit to write up, so I came with out. We verbated about not bring a verbatim. *Fran- what's up?* It was a good time- I was a bit amused at the protective team mates I have... good thing my supervisors were there not to let me off the hook.

Basically I have been worried about many of my relationships outside of the hospital and not getting things done. I had to talk myself into coming to work and saying I had not written my report verse calling in sick. Avoiding something? Needing to rebel or express my control? We hit on a few different points. Now, I will go and write a verbatim to turn into my supervisor.

One learning issue that was brought up that I am inquistive about: Fran, you say very often what you don't want ...or I don't know. What do you want?

Another which was openly observed: I do not make decisions very easily. Other than my not being able to decide on which visit to verbate, it was in between anoying and humor as I stated what I wanted to do-- in between writing todays session as a verbatim, or write a verbatim everyday until I loose nerviousness about it. They asked what I wanted, I wasn't sure, then decided write a verbatim that I was already debating about, and then I had to choose to give it just to my supervisor or to each person. They figured because I wasn't certain to make the decision that I didn't want to give it to everyone- but it my head I was thinking- do I want to make that many copies and to I want them to feel like they need to read it.  -Doh-

Oh yes... so- going to make myself go write the verbatim and then try to visit some patients/floors so I don't feel like I'm finding things to do in order not to visit (which was my issue last week---thing from outside of work were on my mind and this normally 'love to visit people' person was not doing self-initative visits)

:) Thanks for reading. Feel free to commit. Bye!